A Distorted Reality Is Now A Necessity To Be Free

This school years almost over, and I dont know whether to be happy or sad.....Ive learned so much about myself and others from being here and I dont think I regret any of it (well maybe one or two things). I know I could be a dick sometimes, but I do have good intentions and that counts for something right? So many memories.....the bathroom with Tom, haha, smoking outside with Mike and the interesting people we met, Soar with Jenn "those are horses right", Bright eyes with Steve as well as going home with him,going to Caitlins with Mike and Steve, Getting into drunken fights with strangers with Mike and Nick, Audrey cleaning my house and helping me move (along with Tom) and all her talk about sex,Jacki being crazy and yelling at me, though i still love her...haha,having deep conversations with Mary, as well as falling head over heels for her, getting broken down with Jenn, Nick, Mike, Tyson,and Rev, the list goes on and on....god am I gonna miss you guys. Even the people im not currently talking to....I love you all and wont forget you over the summer, try not to forget me.

Current Mood: contemplative
Current Music: Beck-girl

Schools almost out and right now I cant wait. I get to go back to a place where people actually understand me. Theres prolly only two ppl here who get me, and im thankful for them. Thats not an insult to my friends at all, just sometimes I feel incredibly distant from you guys, and nows one of those times. I dont mean to bitch but it seems like thats the only thing live journal is used for these days. Im gonna miss people over the summer, but I think this break is def nessacary. Hopefully people will grow up over the summer (including myself) and there wont be drama.Ahh....Thatd be nice

Current Mood: disappointed
Current Music: We are all on drugs-Weezer

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Hey,
Its been so nice out I love it!!! So im still a vegetarian which is awesome, though it was wicked hard when I went to Mcdonalds with Steve and Mike today! Thanx guys for not letting me eat any meat, haha. So Ive been noticing in ppls live journals a lot of mention of "drama". If I have helped contribute in any way im truly sorry, but the past is the past and honestly i dont care anymore. Fuck it!! If people hold grudges its of their own free will, but remember it will only fuck you over in the end. Mary is beautiful, even when shes wearing sweatpants and rockin the same deodorant (dove) that my mom wears!!! Also, she has nice eyes! That was random, but i guess im bi polar. Or maybe shes just standing right by me....haha. Well im gonna go, Later.

Current Mood: complacent
Current Music: Billy Idol

Today was prolly the worse day of life....First my transmission goes. Then I find out that my mom has a blood clot and would be in the hospital for a week. I didnt know how bad it was untill I got home and my step dad told me that it goes almost to her heart....she may have one in her stomach......and that she has a rare blood disorder that hasnt been noticed untill now. My step dad was crying when he told me this and thats rare. To top it off she has to undergo a very serious surgery 2morrow....This all fucking sucks, and Im really scared.....Thanx to Steve,Tom,and Caitlin I love you guys and without you (and Megan) id still be stuck in vermont.

Current Mood: scared
Current Music: none

Hey,
Its been two weeks and im still a vegetarian!! Nice! Caitlin still is to, though she messed up the other night!! Props to her for buying me pizza 2nite!!! So not alot is going on. Lsc isnt bad, its not that great thou "the cold comfort of the in between". So I walked into Steves room and was flattered, but a little freaked out to see that his roommate had my s/n under "sexiest kid on campus". Thats for you Mike! So Megan my ex might come up next weekend....I dunno though that could be weird. We have a lotta drama between us and things cold go either way. "I wanna stay 18 forever so we can stay like this forever". I love Brand New. Well I g2g, Super bowl time. Thou I really dont care who wins, it feels good to be trendy!

Current Mood: geeky
Current Music: Senses Fail

Hey kids!!
So here I am updating this thing again. Guess I just couldnt resist its magnetic pull. Im now in my second semester in college and things are going pretty good but a little strange (like always). Things that are new... Well lets see, My hairs not bright red anymore! Which is kinda cool becuz i was startin to get complaints that i look like a clown. Not that theres anything wrong with that. Im down with clowns. Im also attempting to be a vegetarian now (along with Caitlin Murphdizzle) so far its been good, but its only been a day so who knows how it will turn out. Last friday- Mike, Caitlin, Steve and me went to Steves home town for the day to get Steves car fixed. I had a really good time and got to meet some cool people and see some descent bands play. Though I dont think I enjoyed the bands as much as Mike,Steve, and the crazy/old Asian guy who were goin crazy in the pit. Before the show, we went to the mall and Caitlin and I decided to get our cartilage pierced. We got matching ones because it was a lot cheaper that way. After much speculation we got skull earrings because those are the only ones we seemed to agree on. It hurt a little but it was worth it because they look wicked cool. Last night- Steve and I went to Burlington to see Bright Eyes play. All I have to say is ....wow. They were amazing, I only have two complaints. The second opening band sucked big time and scared me with their crazy images ( u dont wanna know). My other complaint is Connor stopped playing randomly during one of my favorite Bright Eyes songs (Lua). He said that he couldnt play when other people were singing along. Thats just weird, why be in a band if you dont want people to sing along? That just added to their uniqueness and made me like them more though. Well Im gonna go I got class early 2morrow. Oh, and if you get a chance play the emo game www.emogame.com its awesome!!

Current Mood: Oh yea!
Current Music: Bright Eyes-Lua

This week has been strange, but id have it no other way. It started off pretty bad... but im over that. Lifes to short to hold grudges. You know that saying "when one door closes another one opens" well that has been the motto for this week. Out of anger and stubbornness I stopped hanging out with my regular group of friends. I was pissed off at some of them for one reason or another and didnt want to see them. So there I am sitting in the courtyard late at night smoking a clove, when Mary walks bye. Marys a good friend of mine who is awesome to talk to (she rox because she likes Elliot Smith). After bitching to her about all my problems I felt a lot better. I always seem to feel better when I talk to her. We ended up hanging out a lot this week which was cool. I did a lot of fun things that I normally wouldnt have. So anywayz Im still gauging my ears, im at a 0 now which is pretty big. My friend Mikes at a double 0, but I dont think im gonna go that big. Time to go.

Current Mood: happy
Current Music: None